180   degrees                                                                                                                                                                                              Wellllll hello. Wow. So much has changed in the past almost 2 weeks. Don't even know where to start.

1. Hermana Zapata went home Monday. The last week was absolutely horrible. Her sickness went from bad to way worse. We went to the emergency room all day Friday when she passed out and started having convulsions. Passed out Thursday night too. At the clinic, they did a CAT scan and blood tests, and everything was normal. She had convulsions and loss of consciousness about 3 or 4 times Friday. Friday night in the middle of the night she passed out again, was seeing people, Saturday had I'm not kidding, convulsions 12 times and yes it was traumatic. President Martinez came Saturday and picked us up. We had about 30 minutes to pack all our stuff, both of us. We both left Independencia. We stayed at the mission home Saturday-Monday and Hermana Zapata went home Mon. It was awful. The past 2 months have just been... So hard. So, so hard. Sunday I ended up making myself sick with a migraine and stomach ache that wouldn't go away with any meds or food or sleep. Monday I felt sick too but am doing better now. They are attributing everything with Hermana Zapata's sickness to anxiety. She just missed home too much, the mission wasn't what she expected it to be, and as much as she tried she just couldn't get accustomed here. :( It breaks my heart but I know I did all I could. One nice thing was that I got to be with Hermana Barbosa her last night (Monday night) and got to take her to the airport Tuesday with the Asistants because she finished her mission!! So that was a little blessing to be able to be with her and feel peace and relax a little after everything.

2. I left Independencia and now I am in Tolhuaca in the little town of Victoria. In the south!! I am so happy, that's what I was hoping for. I am also training again. So, that means I am opening the area AND training this time. In Tolhuaca, there were 2 Hermanas and 2 Elders. But we kicked out the Elders so now we're 4 Hermanas. :) My hija is Hermana Ferrell, from Utah. She is really great. She is one of the first sister missionaries to start the mission at 19!! She's 20 now, she had her birthday in the MTC. But she is awesome. She has wanted to serve a mission her whole life and so she put in her mission papers 48 hours after the Prophet made the announcement that girls can leave at 19 haha. She is full of energy and faith and has just a great Spirit and attitude. She is ready to work and to give her whole heart to the Lord and these people here. We haven't been able to work too much just yet, but tomorrow we will and it is going to be a great day. :) Another great thing about her- the day I picked her up, I asked her what she liked to do for exercise. And she said, ''Everything. The more the better.'' I was like ohhhhh I love you!!! So, we are going to run every day. :) That makes me VERY happy, you have no idea. :D We have a couple issues here in the sector (like the part where we don't have a house) but we are working on it and it's all gonna be fine.

I feel kind of a lot of pressure right now. With the things that are required of me... And with comments people have been making, it seems they have high hopes/expectations of me. Sometimes I worry that I will dissappoint. But I am trying to remember that I can't do anything alone, so if they are hoping for miracles from me, they're gonna be dissappointed. HOWEVER, if I trust in God, we can work miracles in the lives of His children here in Tolhuaca. So I am doing my best to remember that He has it all in control, even if I don't feel like I do. :)

Last week, in my scripture study, I found something really great. Talking about the life of the Savior, ''And he received not of the fulness at first, but continued from grace to grace, until he received a fulness; and thus he was called the Son of God, because he received not of the fulness at the first... If you keep my commandments you shall receive of His fulness, and be glorified in me as I am in the Father; therefore, I say unto you, you shall receive grace for grace'' (Doctrine and Covenants 93:13-14, 20). I loved this because it teaches us that even Jesus Christ, the only perfect person to ever walk the earth, didn't understand or know the fulness of all things at first. Additionally, it says that his not having a fulness at first qualified Him to be called the Son of God. WE are all children of God, and a part of being children of God means that we don't know everything at first but that we progress! If we keep the commandments of God, He will bless us so much. He will bless us to be able to grow and improve in every way in our lives. I read an African proverb today. It says simply, ''Smooth seas do not make skillful sailors.'' I can testify of that. I know that we need trials in our lives to be able to improve. And as we trust in God, He will help us. I am grateful for the trials and experiences I have been given. I know that I have grown so much, and am grateful for that and for the experiences I will yet have.

I know God lives, and that He loves us! Have a great weekend, I'll be writing again on Monday. :)

Love y'all.

Hermana Anderton